Say Yeah

So, yeah. Speech Choir. And I'm tired. English Drama. Uhm. I'm hoping that the role is perfectly mine. Mag Inc. Yeah, again, this year. President of English Club. Whoa, I have to organize the activity for next meeting........uhmmmm. Study. I don't have time. Homework. The only thing that I could complete.

Say YEAH to speech choir, english drama, Mag Inc, English Club and EXAM! God, I'm tired. I'm sleepy. I'm exhausted. But, I'm doing all these things because I LOVE it. So, no regret.

p/s: I miss my friends. I feel damn LONELY. Super lonely. My life is EMPTY. The only thing I have is my commitment towards all those things. But still, I MISS THEM, A LOT. T_T

Me, emotionless. Staring dreamily. Looking kinda tired.

Once Again

I keep this one simple and short.

GOODBYE, Shezat. I don't really have anything to say, since I've said EVERYTHING that I want to during our trip to Kuala Terengganu.

It's just that, I feel extremely HAPPY for you because I know it's your DREAM for years. So, I won't possibly try to stop you or what. In fact, I want you to go.

Somehow, I feel deeply sad. Yeah. I won't have anybody to fold my problem to. Qurratu would always be my Best Friend, but, there's still something that I could share to you, but, not to her. I bet it's just the same as Qurratu and you, heh? So, yeah.

It would definitely affect my typical life in our class. And I'm serious. I know how does it feel when you're not there. I feel like, I couldn't speak those things that occur in my mind to whoever except YOU. Well, you might feel offended (by my words), but, YOU KNOW ME, heh?

And please accept my APOLOGY for hurting your feelings. I know I'm a bit sarcastic. Plus, I just speak directly without thinking more than twice (well, I think twice, anyway). Haha. And yeah, like what you said, I'm the KETUA PEMBANGKANG. Heaven yeah. I often deny other people's opinions. But, that doesn't mean that I'm telling my opinion is right. I'm just a person with a different way of thinking, maybe. So, please, if I hurted you using my words, I hope you are willing to forget it because I seldom say the things that I didn't mean.

Good Luck and Goodbye.
Go reach your dream.
Pick your shining star.
But, don't forget me.

p/s: Shezat, I order you to go to YOUTUBE. And, go listen to Avril Lavigne's GOODBYE. Pretend as if I'm the one who sings the song. Haha. But, no, the LYRICS are not even related. Just listen~

FUTURE depends on us

Yeah. And so, now I know why I should study harder. I just happened to know. (It's not that I don't really know, but......,, hehe)

We (34 form4 students) went to a place where we were exposed with those things like UNIVERSITIES, COLLEGES and all that. Yeah. It shouldn't be us who were supposed to attend that event, but the form5 students were the ones who should! We just had no idea. Somehow, I regretted NOTHING.
It was really worth it.

I really really want a better future to someday happen.
I've been longing to own a great career and achieve my dream. I don't wanna let go and have to do all the things that I don't like.

money is honey. But, money isn't everything, because if you don't have passion in your own job, you'll still feel stressful no matter how high your income is. Come on. Do what you like and everything will come naturally (including MONEY!)

And yeah,
I'm into English. I love English. But, I'm not saying I'm super GOOD in English or what. I'm interested in English, so I'm doing my best to brush up on my English. So far, there are always people out there who are damn better than me. So, I'm grading myself as AVERAGE level in English. And so, I'll try my best so that I could 'grab' TESL someday!

I'm talking about SCHOLARSHIP. People say, it's way easier to get scholarship if you manage to get into MRSM. Fine, then. Oh, great. And I'm not in MRSM. Sounds a bit pathetic, huh? Aish. ):

Alright. The 'ENTRY REQUIREMENT' for those universities that I'm interested in made my jaw dropped. Calm down. Calm down. So,
I guess that's why it is vitally important for me to study harder.

p/s: Well, I'm 16. I'm not 26 (Am I starting to talk like an adult?) It's just that, I'm feeling INSECURE about my future. I hate to depend on my parents. SIXTEEN YEARS (and a few more years) is enough. I don't wanna be a burden to the people I love. T_T

So Far So Great

Perhaps It was not really bad that I made a decision not to enroll in boarding school and all that. Yeah, I just could feel it since last year when most of my friends were damn SERIOUS wanna get outta TMS. Well, I don't wanna start all over again. It's pretty tiring, you know. Yeah, PERHAPS the future of certain students might become 'brighter' if they enroll in boarding school, but, hey, CHANCES ARE EVERYWHERE. If the school you're staying is super GOOD, that doesn't make you good as well if you don't work hard, you know. But yeah, the ATMOSPHERE might influence you, right?

Yeah, TRUST yourself. I trust mine. You?

So far, I managed to get into SPEECH CHOIR team. Yeah, I had to go through the audition. I had to SING for crying out loud. Can you guess which song did I sing? BEAST? No. DEMI LOVATO? No. PARAMORE? Yeah. The only exception, haha.

You know, I hate it when I get that SOLO part, because I'll catch myself nervous with plenty butterflies in my stomach when my part is getting nearer. It's just that, I really really dislike that kind of feel. But still, it was absolutely COOL, lah, when we're all practicing. Laughing without reason and all that. Haha.

Not to mention, I also managed to get into PERBAHASAN team. Yeah, it's PERBAHASAN, not DEBATE., So, yeah, in Malay. But, there was once sis Dini said that we had to go for the ENGLISH DEBATE audition (mainly, because she mentioned my name) and I was like, "What?? No." I really really bad in debating with someone especially when it comes to spontaneous. I was not interested. And Thanks God, I was not even heard anything about the audition till now. Yeah, the DEBATE team won, anyway, without me. Haha.

Wait. I got into PERBAHASAN team instead. Aish. I can't believe this. I thought I was succeed in running away from that kind of 'SPONTANEOUS' stuff, but, I didn't. Somehow, I was not in the MAIN team that will enter the competition, but, I will enter that one NEXT YEAR. Form 5 students are the main team. My other four friends are also in the team for next year. Too bad, this year, the team lose. But, it's alright. My other FOUR friends will fight till the end next year! Plus, we have a strategy on order to win. Haha.

And yeah, I'm the English Club president, with only 7 VOTES. Haha. My birthday is on 7 February, so I consider 7 is my LUCKY NUMBER. Haha. Becoming the president isn't easy, trust me. I have to gain trust from the teacher and the members. This thing makes me nervous, once again. Aish.

I'm pretty glad that I have those commitment so that my life in TMS won't be so damn boring.

Wait. I forgot to tell you that the EXAM was over. But, I was kinda disappointed, because it was not my best. Study, LAST MINUTE, again. I really have to change my 'habit' of studying because it doesn't really work. Girl, you're 16, not 15. Trust me, transforming from form 3 to form 4 is really A BIG DEAL. It's totally tough. I'll work hard. If I'm not working hard, somebody please remind me about my NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION. Hahaha.

Yeah, it's an update of my life in TMS, yo. 4M, fighting!

Who says?

WHO SAYS - Selena Gomez

You made me insecure

Told me I wasn’t good enough
But who are you to judge
When you’re a diamond in the rough
I’m sure you got some things
You’d like to change about yourself
But when it comes to me
I wouldn’t want to be anybody else

I’m no beauty queen
I’m just beautiful me

You’ve got every right
To a beautiful life

Who says
Who says you’re not perfect
Who says you’re not worth it
Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting
Trust me
That’s the price of beauty
Who says you’re not pretty
Who says you’re not beautiful

Okay, I'm not into SELENA GOMEZ, or what. It's just that her latest song, WHO SAYS's lyrics is kinda attract me. Whoa. This lyrics is pretty honest. This one seems like the song from KERI HILSON, PRETTY GIRL ROCK. I love the part when she sings, "DON'T HATE ME 'CAUSE I'M BEAUTIFUL". Haha.

It's kinda TRUE. Well, I have some friends who told me that I'm not good enough. They're not saying directly, though. But, it still HURTS. But, yeah who are they to judge me whether I'm stupid or what? Know what, I won't let any dirty comments effect me because the only thing that matter is my own opinion, not yours.

Another thing, GIRLS, stop saying you're no good in something or ugly, or what. Because I know you're LYING. Haha. You're damn GOOD, but you're feeling INSECURE. I like girls who are CONFIDENCE. But, yeah, I dislike those girls who are OVER-CONFIDENCE. Haha. Keep your confidence, but don't let it RULES you. One more thing, ALL GIRLS IN THE WORLD ARE BEAUTIFUL. Trust me. Beautiful is not all about your appearance, okay?

Bye, Beautiful! =)