I ran across this quote in Seventeen Magazine. Hehe. And yeah. I'm seventeen also, mehh. And I'm waiting patiently (and anxiously) for my SPM's result. This is the time to start thinking about my future. And today, I had a so-called reunion with my ex-classmates and I asked almost everyone "Which courses are you going to choose?" and none of them really answer my question. Perhaps I was exaggerating these 'future' thingy. Because they seemed relaxed. Hmm.
Doctor. Lawyer. Engineer. Architect. Teacher. Singer. Professor.
Interesting. Those are the lines that we used to answer when we were young, once people asked, "Who do you want to be when you grow up?"
Those are beautiful dreams, indeed. But, they sound cliche' to me. I believe those dreams are not for me. Yeah. Yeah. I know. I'm aiming for TESL, which definitely means I'm going to .... teach. Even the title says it all (Teaching English as Second Language). I wish to become an English teacher and teach at rural village school. I'm going to teach the children the beauty of language and I'm bringing my guitar to play the English songs with them. I'd love to live my whole life, like that. When I'm getting my pay, I would travel ..... around the world!
When I was 7, I dreamed of becoming a singer, because I was a fan of Siti Nurhaliza. Then, it switched into becoming a doctor. Next, a stewardess. A professor, (major in English, of course). And now, I decide to take TESL, because the only subject that I really love is English. I rather write an English essay than studying Physics. I don't mind flipping through pages of English novels just to stumble upon new vocabulary. I just simply love the beauty of English. I express my thoughts way better in English because I find writing in Bahasa Melayu is kind of too .... dramatic, to me. But hey, it's not like I fail my Bahasa Melayu or what.
Maybe. Just maybe. My aim to take TESL is wavering, right now. Because I fall in love with fashion. Even my cousin and my aunt suggested me to choose fashion design (Or maybe I didn't notice the humor. Whatever). I've always loved fashion, anyway. And I am inspired by Jezmine Blossom because she has her own fashion line, Old Blossom Box. When I was 7, I was the little girl who wore dresses wherever she went. There was this moment when I was in my class, I told my best friend, I might just take fashion design instead, and one day open my own clothes shop, with my own clothing line (of course). Isn't it alluring to say "Fashion Designer", when you're being asked about your job? Waking up every morning to face those fabrics, beautiful patterns and exquisite designs is an utter bliss. Making my customers feel happy upon purchasing their desire outfits would leave me in an implicit satisfied. The thing is ....
I do not know how to design. Let alone sewing clothes.
And I'm not an alert person to notice little things on people's garments. I even have bad memory when it comes to remembering people's outfits. Okay. For instance, let's say you wear a yellow t-shirt today, and on the next day, the memory of seeing you in yellow will vanish from my mind. What that makes me? Less 'fashionably alert'. Ugh. I don't even have good fashion sense. But, at least, I feel confident in it (:
Because I love dancing very very much, I actually consider to become a choreographer. Which is ridiculous. I only perform on the Talent Show at my school, and choreographed a performance for Teacher's Day (And most teachers didn't like it, because they thought it was inappropriate, I guess) and I suddenly, out of the blue, decided to become a choreographer. I thought it will be amazing to choreograph Kpop groups (Because I'm an avid fan of Kpop). Let's just bury this dream into a .... grave. But I'm still dancing. I don't have two left feet :p
Girl. Face it. Face the REAL world. The REAL life. I should stick to TESL. It only seems REAL when I decide to take TESL. No worry. I realize without hard works, I wouldn't become a good teacher, though.
But still, I want to be different. Different than my classmates. Different than my friends. I want to do something that I love to do for my whole life and completely different from others' dreams. I will make it happen. And I trust Him. He would always knows what's BEST for me.
p/s: I'm planning to create a scrapbook of my fashion ideas. I'm going to cut and paste those models wearing branded, exquisite clothes into my fashion scrapbook. I even bought new color pencils!