The Downside

Despite all of those exhilarating, exciting activities for the subject (regarding my recent post). I've discovered few things. 

I realize that my temper always gets me into trouble. My impulsive behaviour tends to hurt others. Due to my serious tone in speaking, they might take my joke .... seriously. 

I can't help it, you know. I can't be all smiling and speaking softly when inside, I'm irritated and annoyed. I just can't. When I get mad, I would pour it all out. Worse, when I'm not even angry at someone, my high tone of speaking causes them to get scared of me because they thought I was mad at them. It's just the way I speak. And my temper is not helping at all.

I'm building the barrier from other people to approach me. I'm cold. I rarely smile simply because ......... I really bad at smiling. My friends said things like, "You're a weirdo. You don't really like smiling, don't you?" "You always seem like you're in a bad mood" "Your smile is too expensive, I guess". Haish. I bury my nose into books (well because I love reading) to avoid awkwardness. I keep my mouth shut when I don't have something important to say. I don't want to speak carelessly anymore. But my quietness was mistaken as ............ passiveness. Hence, they urged me to speak and give opinion during discussion (when I already did, but they didn't even bother to listen) and that was annoying. 

How am I going to show the beauty of Islam with this attitude? How am I going to teach my future students with this impatient, hot-tempered, impulsive behaviour of mine? How on earth would I be a good example to my little sister, friends and future students when I'm acting this way? 

:'(

Tell You What

I am so sorry because this blog is no longer a priority for this semester. Heck, my last entry was on February. That was ancient! 


I got caught up with all of those endless courseworks. Yeah yeah, here we go again, my excuses. Hence, that explains why this blog is not a priority to me recently.



If you follow my instagram profile, you know how 'interesting' my course subject was. The subject is called PET 102: Oral Skill for TESOL students. If you are looking forward to pursue TESOL in USM, brace yourself! 

1st activity: Singing audition in public (public means in front of a restaurant where many passengers walk along) where we were divided into 4 teams.

2nd activity: Get into pairs and do whatever you want in public (acting, dancing, singing or whatever that comes into your mind in .... 15 minutes)

3rd activity: Voice modulation. Put on an animal's suit. Act like one. Sound like one. Speak like ... human, though. Create a storyline. Do it in public, of course.

4th activity: Write a monologue in a piece of paper within 2 minutes. Then be prepared to perform an impromptu monologue using .............. others' monologue. Ugh. Yes, in public.

5th activity: Recite a poem. Please wear appropriate and poem-related outfits. In public, for sure.

6th activity: 80s Musical Drama. 80s outfits, check. 80s dance, check. 80s song, check. We did it in a lecture hall and invite other students to watch our performance. Fuhh. We're glad it was over. 

7th activity: Children's theatre. Go to a primary school. Play English games (Drama puppets, choral speaking and cup song) with the standard 6 students. Very exhausting, I tell you. But it was FUN, indeed :)

And it's not over, yet. We have to write reflections for each activity >.< and compile everything in a hard bound.



Well, this subject is 100% coursework, so, no exam paper for us. Yeay!