Solitary

You know, when certain people make me as a 'second choice' (in friendship, etc) then I simply choose to runaway from them. You regard me as your second best, then I make you as an option too. I try to fit in, and sometime I DO fit in, but not completely. Maybe it's better to walk on my own. But still, sometime, it gets lonely. ugh. 

Who am I to feel lonely when I choose to stay this way? Hah. 

Right. I still have Allah. It's enough. More than enough. I'm perfectly imperfect. I should rectify my relationship with Him and only then, I believe He'll take care the rest of my relationship with His creations. Right?

Now

Time flies. It's been months I'm here. Heh. Mid Sem exam's over. Now, we're striving for final sem exam. It's getting closer. Sometime, I hate myself for relaxing too much. Sometime I'm annoyed at myself for being too panic (especially when I fail to complete my homework). That's me. Typical me. When my roommates are burning the midnight oil, studying, and all that, I simply decide to sleep early. I love doing my own thing. I love having a night walk from surau to koop to hostel. I enjoy the music along my way. I enjoy having myself as my own company. But hey, socialize is also my thing, duh. Well, let's just say, I'm well-balanced. I need friends to rely on and I need my own space to stand up on my own. 


The thing is, I'm happy and contented to be here, Kolej Mara Kulim. Of course, studying chemistry, biology and physics is challenging ........ MOST of the time. That's what you get when you don't have a dream of becoming a pharmacist, doctor or engineering. Haa.
But, it feels right. To be here. To be a part of this programme. Pra-USM programme. We're like.... an 'experiment' you know. Yeap. We're the FIRST batch (pioneer). *grin

I'm still struggling, yeah... quizzes still caught me off guard. Blame me for not being ready and studying consistently.. well.. let's just conclude that I should improve that part. 


Alhamdulillah. I'm good. Struggling. But I'll survive. If Allah wills it :)

So.............. What's been happening lately? Here we go :D

Heh. You know what's happening right? Last year, it was frog. This time it's mice ~

I'm officially a blood donor! I'm not trying to show off or what.. but yeah... it feels good to donate some blood :)

This. Is. Unexpected. For someone who doesn't even like Science. This. Is Whoa. Alhamdulillah :')
7 is my lucky number oh yeah :D I'm hoping for the best this forthcoming final sem ~

SELAMAT HARI RAYA ....

~ MERDEKA'S CELEBRATION ~

Can you spot the Royal Balcony? Yeap. It's where the Jalur Gemilang is. 

That's it. For now. I gotta go................do a little bit of study and a little bit of watching movies.. Heeeeee.

Salam :)

Heartless

I'm just a human. I can be very selfish, sometime. I might have my ego. But I'm fragile on the inside. And I feel very hopeless. What happened in Egypt ............ is utterly heart-breaking. Heartless.

For those who's still clueless about what's happening in Egypt.., please read this:

http://angelwearsgucci.blogspot.com/2013/08/konflik-mesir-untuk-dummies.html

Doa. Senjata Mukmin. Remember. Let's do our parts. 

 

First

Yeap. Today is the FIRST day of Raya. I know. But I'm not going to talk about the first day of Raya. Because technically, when I thought about going back to KMK this Saturday's night, it sorts of ruining my 'Raya mood'. Here I am, blogging in the dark, listening to Demi Lovato's The Middle, realising the fact that I should rise early tomorrow because we'll be having Open House, and it's already 12.40 am. I should make a research about innovation....... a proposal is waiting to be created. I should Google some Cellular Respiration notes, because it was complicated (to me) and the lecture was blurry (again, to me). But hey, I'm not doing any of those ... much. I'm happily blogging instead. Hah. That's me. Typical, I-don't-care me. 

So yeah ................... for someone who doesn't have a chemistry with the ... um, kitchen .. here we go, my FIRST cupcake! Because this cupcake only requires 3 ingredients, FLOUR + EGG + NUTELLA, yeay, I'm baking this! And it tastes ... GOOD (to me. lol). 

NUTELLA cupcake, anyone?

That morning, my mom baked Pavlova (which is really really tasty, sweet, and all good thing that describes desserts) and I asked mom to 'share' her pavlova's whipped cream for my cupcakes. heh.

Whoops. It's almost 1am. Gotta go .. to get some sleep. 

Ramadhan and Me

credit: Facebook?

This year's Ramadhan is quite different ... for me. Sounds cliche' ., but yeah, this year is the first year that I experienced 'my Ramadhan' at some places other than my home. They say, first time is always the hardest. In my case, yes, it was hard, considering the fact that I spent the first day of Ramadhan at home, so when I reached my college (4th Ramadhan), there's this sick, itchy feeling of wanting to spend the rest of Ramadhan at home. But then, I kept my head under the pressure (homesick, mid sem exam, quizzes) and went on until .......... I got home last Thursday, which was the last day of my mid sem exam. 

Still, It's Wednesday already and I don't feel like studying ... oh well, exam's over isn't it? The angel on the right says, "Girl, there's this Math assignment and a proposal and 3 lab reports..........so, let's finish those now," . But the devil on the left provokes, "Babe, tomorrow kann Raya .. Just leave it la.., you can always do it later,"

err..

Oh, right. Ramadhan at Kolej Mara Kulim was memorable, to me. I don't want to get into details, but it was not that bad. Rela turun ke Dewan Selera at 5am untuk bersahur. Being a part of Majlis Ilmu. Berbuka di surau. Berbuka di dalam hostel (hehe.... breaking the rules once in a while is harmless..). 

Iftar with Mentor Mentee was incredibly awesome. Delicious food. Capturing moments. Laughing. Sharing. A moment to remember, indeed :)

FYI, for someone who doesn't even like Physics, like me, Allah has destined for me to accept a PHYSICS teacher as my MENTOR (yeap, the teacher that I mentioned in previous post). Honestly, I was terribly horrified when I received that news but um, everything happens for a reason, right? Heeee... 

This time, let's go back to 2012. It's 5 Amir 2012, people! So many stories to share, so little time! Ugh. Ada yang akan pergi ke Korea, US, Russia, etc. The rest study at UIA, UM, UTP, UITM, Matrikulasi, Maktab Perguruan, etc. Whoa. Semua membawa haluan masing-masing. I wish you all the BEST! And please, be yourself because you guys are amazing just the way you are ;) 

p/s: Time, please stop ><